February 2011
38 posts
1/31
Today was one of those days where I felt kind of sad for no reason in particular. It was an alright day overall though. But I’m feeling really overwhelmed with schoolwork and it’s just getting to the point where I don’t care. Well, it’s been at that point for a while…but I mean, I just don’t care. Why does all of this stuff matter? I’m sick of being a...
January 2011
66 posts
1/30
Today Kay & I went to the mall to get my formal dress but even though we spent all day looking we didn’t find anything. Which was lame. I ended up ordering a dress online and I’m very excited for it. (: But now I’m just super sleepy and I wish it was summertime so I didn’t have to wake up in the morning. But it’s not, and I do. So I guess this is goodnight.
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luxarumque asked: will you marry me?
1/28
Today on the way home from school I realized that I hadn’t made plans for the night. Then when I got home I realized that I didn’t want to. I’d just spend the night with myself. First I went on a walk and did a lot of thinking. I don’t know if you go on many walks, but for me it was one of those walks where I didn’t want it to ever end. When I came home I wrote a full...
1/27
THIS WEEKEND I NEED TO GO ON A PHOTOVENTURE.
It’s been waaay too long.
altheasicklee:
I accept that I am young and that the grooves of my brain are minimal, that the beats of my heart don’t measure up to yours. And that I’ve got too much to learn. But all I’m saying is that right now this is how it is and if I’m young, well okay but that doesn’t change the fact that this is the way I feel, and that I’m serious, and that I won’t let my age limit how much I can...
1/26
I’ve decided that I’m gonna start drawing again. I used to draw all the time and now the only time I do it is in the borders of my paper during math class…it’s about time I try to pick it up again. (:
loveisthenewebony asked: Feel better!! D:
Lalala
I’ve watched more America’s Next Top Model today than anyone ever should.
1/25 or something
I am so sick I think I might die. My throat hurts and I have one of those nasty coughs where your body is trying to make you spit out your insides. My whole body is suuuuper sore and my head has been pounding for two days straight. And you know when you’re sick and you feel absolutely freezing even though you’re covered in blankets in a 90 degree room? Ugh. But none of that would be so...
Anonymous asked: HO YOU LOOK SEXY WITH THAT NEW HAIR. SEXY LIKE MY SEAGULL.
K BYE.
K BYE.
1/22
Reasons why today was great:
- Woke up at the beach
- Had mini wheats for breakfast
- Made a final decision that I do, in fact, like my hair cut
- Rode the tandem with Evan
- Ate ice cream twice
- Was away from the house most of the day
- Decided that I am definitely, without a doubt, in love <3
Jack threw stick at seagull.
hannahdyhapm:
Seagull: “HATERS GONNA HATE”
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First thought of the day:
When I grow up, I neeeeed to live at the ocean. Like, close enough so that I wouldn’t have to walk more than ten or fifteen steps. That way, at night time when I can’t sleep, I can sit in the sand and listen to the waves crash in and out. And in the morning when I don’t want to get out of bed, I can remind myself that my favorite thing is right outside my bedroom window waiting...
The early hours of 1/22
Why can’t I sleep anymore? It’s 6:40 am and I’ve been awake since Hannah and I went to bed at like..11. This is the first night I’ve gotten to leave my house since I got the puppy a few months ago and I can’t sleep. This is frustrating. At my house it’s hard for me to fall asleep, and even if I do, I’m always woken up at 5:30 am to my mom screaming and...
11/21
Tonight I’m going to art fest with Hannah, and then sleeping over at her house. Thank god.
1/20
FUCK. I can’t make myself any fucking clearer. I’ve been feeling depressed to the point of not wanting to wake up in the morning for so long and you don’t even care. You say that you’re miserable too so I’m selfish for wanting to be happy. Fuck.
1:33 am
If the world weren’t so dangerous at this hour I’d say it feels like a nice time for a bike ride.
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Can I just say that today has been awful? Actually, every day lately has been awful. That’s what made today so much more awful, is that I thought it was gonna make me feel better. And it didn’t. It made everything worse.
Here's to our lives being meaningless, and how...
1/19
You make me feel like shit about everything. All the time. I know that most of the time you’re trying to, but you still do it even when you aren’t trying to. So what the hell, will you please just leave me the fuck alone? All I ever try to be is a good person and a good daughter and someone worth saying hello to when I walk in the door. So please, please, please, will you just go fall...
yeahyeahyeah
people will say all kinds of things; that don’t mean a damn to me..
cause all i see is whats in front of me..and thats you
well i may be just be a fool but i know you’re just as cool,
and cool kids, they belong together..
Whaaaaat.
I’m looking at colleges online right now..and at college majors. And I have no idea what I’m gonna do…there’s nothing that interests me. I don’t know of any majors and I don’t know what jobs you can get depending on what you major in..I don’t know what any of this stuff means. Why can’t I just take pictures and paint and play music and be happyyyy. I...
1/17
Today is one of those, pour-myself-a-bowl-of-lucky-charms-and-spend-an-hour-separating-the-marshmallows-from-the-cereal kind of days…
1/16 Why am I feeling so sad right now?
Today was a pretty good day.. I just hate how much I hate myself. It gets in the way of everything. I wish I could feel comfortable in my own skin but honestly there is not one second of any day where I’m not beating myself up about every aspect of every little thing I do. There’s never a time where I’m not feeling self-conscious and insecure. I wish I could move past all of this...
cuetheinvasion asked: I LIKE ADVENTURES. AND I'M TOO LAZY TO UNPRESS THE CAPS LOCK KEY SO YEAH THE AYDEN VOICE IN YOUR HEAD IS NOW YELLING AT YOU BUT I'M NOT YELLING I'M ACTUALLY NOT TALKING AT ALL.
DONT WORRY THE VOICES ARE YELLING AT ME IN MY HEAD, TOO!! <3
DONT WORRY THE VOICES ARE YELLING AT ME IN MY HEAD, TOO!! <3
cuetheinvasion asked: umm yes we do!! it's crazy now, isn't it?? i feel like i don't talk to anyone anymore :P
cuetheinvasion asked: nicole!!! i miss the bollucks outta you, chica!! <3 <3
1/15
I feel like finally after all the times I’ve told myself I was going to change, after all the times I’ve told myself I was going to be a better person, I’ve finally done it. Or, I’m finally doing it. I think I’ve been a better friend lately..and I think I’ve been a lot more patient with my parents. And I’ve been taking time to talk to my brother and to ask...
luxarumque asked: poo.
1/14 Pieces of last night's conversation
“What if we’re right..what if we’re not just two kids caught up in each other? What if we’re in real love and we’ll grow up and get married and have the perfect kind of love story where we’ve known each other our whole lives?”
“You don’t know how many times I’ve thought of that…I’m sure that’s what’s going on. As...
“With freedom, books, flowers, and the moon, who could not be happy?”
– Oscar Wilde (via turquoisekush)
Today I will:
- eaaaat
- finish Olivia’s christmas present
- finish my painting for art class
- work a looot on my artist journal
- play violin
- maybe hang out with someone later?
1/7
I can’t even begin to explain how perfect tonight was. I absolutely love being able to lay my head on your chest and have you run your fingers through my hair while I fall asleep. I get this feeling when I’m with you, that is just so overwhelmingly perfect. I love you, I love you, I love you.